Thanks for the questions Anita.
In the most recent experiences, I’ve gotten more courage to be more transparent with my feelings and asked difficult questions I wouldn’t have before.
The answers have been things like “I am trying to move cities soon so I don’t want to get attached.”
I guess my biggest frustration is why men speak in the beginning, promising all sorts of things only to completly change their tone weeks later.
I wish I weren’t so dependent on men’s approval for validation. And since I can’t get past that point I can’t help it not effect my self esteem.