Hi Sonja,
I am very sorry to read about what happened to you. I know how you feel because something similar happened to me too. Know that you are not alone. Take some time to be by yourself to think through what you want, and take some time to also be with people who love and cherish you. I think no-one can tell you what the right answer is as to what you should do: the answer will come when you’ve had some time to work through your thoughts and emotions. It WILL come out right in the end: have faith and know that you are deserving of love, respect and happiness.

Wishing you much peace & strength,
JaniceCee