There are those moment for all of us. Taking a pause in the morning to draft out and write a calming message helps me. We need to stay one day at a time. Breathe. Know you are loved. Give of yourself as you complete your studies. Volunteer somewhere to verify your ability, knowledge and build your value of self.

http://www.onbeing.org/blog/lovingkindness-metta-meditation-sylvia-boorstein/2599 When I am feeling lost as I too am dealing with the decision to treat myself better. I take a long shower then listen to this meditation. I hope it will do for you what it offers me. 21 constant days will give you power/strength as you take care of yourself. 21 days. Each Day I try to NOT email or text to ‘his’ location, I know I am more true to myself.

Listen to the following: http://www.onbeing.org/blog/lovingkindness-metta-meditation-sylvia-boorstein/2599