Hi Jeff, depression can be beaten and not just by drugs. Try to get away from your home, somewhere peaceful, relaxing and an environment which doesn’t distract you. Take half an hour or maybe an hour and think honestly about what is important to you. Know that you can get your life back by fully accepting that you can turn it around. Know that your negative thoughts are those of depression and fight them, reply to them and believe that life is so darn short and you don’t want to waste another moment. While you may feel that ‘its easy to say but not do’ you must fight this and believe you can be happy and live life to the full. Meditation may not be for you so why not try (make yourself) walking for half an hour each day in your neighbourhood. Plagiarise Nike and JUST DO IT. Reach out, be strong and love your children like you’ve never loved them before. Be committed to changing your thoughts and feelings which are a direct result of depression. JUST DO IT. Make a decision to do this and commit!