Thank you everybody for sending me your kind thoughts,and messages.I am not trying to have a poor me party,but I truly am all alone.You see it started when I left my controlling husband,and my own family turned on me since then.At first I ran after them to get their approval,but then one day it hit me that they are my own family how can they support the man that was so unkind to me,and not see my pain?But talking to my family about that was like talking to a brick wall.No use.And so I thought that’s okay may be I can find a friend,but every one judged me,or found something to blame me that why my husband was abusive?So it became all about blaming me that I must have said or done something for him to be so abusive to me.That it was my fault.No one ever said how could he do that?Every one just said to me,what did you do?So I stopped sharing my feelings with friends.I thought friends and family are there for you when life blows.They are your ultimate support system.But in my case that wasn’t so.And it’s been a while,since I left my husband.But now it starting to bother me that how my own family blamed me?That how I have no one that can just offer a shoulder to lean on?I am not asking for much here,am I?There are people that kill,rob,do all kinds of hurtful thing,but even they have family and friends that are in their corner.Am I worse than them that no one wants to be in my corner?

I was feeling so down and low that I decided to post here,hoping for some answers,or some kind of validation I think.I feel ashamed that in this big world where there are over 4 billion people and I can’t find one person that’s there for me without judging me?Or blaming me?Thank you for this forum that I can express myself.