Thank you to all for your kind words.
Luckygrl7, your post helped me so much. Youāre right that it is his dysfunction. He couldnāt bear to be with someone ānot perfectā. My friends have all said better to have found out now than further down the road. We were together for 5 months. His previous actions were completely incongruent with how he acted when I told him about my condition. I didnāt expect him to run away. At all.
Heās not going to make things right, and Iāve blocked all contact. Personally, heās not someone I want in my life after his reaction. My condition is not something Iāll die from; itās unfortunately something that carries an unnecessary stigma in society even though itās not causing me harm, except grief over the loss of my relationship. And thereās no cure for it.
Through this anger and grief, Iām trying to decipher what lesson I was supposed to learn. So far I havenāt come up with it. Fortunately I have friends and family I can rely on, although theyāre getting tired of hearing about my woes. I sincerely wish I hadnāt met him or had to experience this grief and loss.