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In 1990, when I was 6, I was in a severe car/train accident that killed my little brother and a family friend, and hospitalized me for 91 days with a frontal lobe injury. I was comatose for over a week and had to learn to do everything all over again. As a result of the accident I was left with depression, survivors guilt, ptsd, and seizures. After I got out of the hospital I spent the next 25 years shut off from everyone except my animals. Now that I am starting to come out of my depressive state I feel the need to make up for lost time.
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December 18, 2017 at 7:15 am #182735
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ParticipantWell, to start with, I have had trouble showing “close” emotions all my life. It was hard for me to even tell family members that I loved them. Lately though, I have found it easier for me to open up about that, I have been more honest about my feelings with the people I care about. The phrase “I love you” is no longer hard for me to say anymore. Also, I have started to embrace tears when they come, instead of fighting them.
August 4, 2017 at 7:35 am #162112colby
ParticipantI feel like I’m embracing the new age here. Â I’ve been using aromatherapy, and am planning on starting massage therapy as an alternative to traditional treatments. Â Its like I’m a new person.
August 3, 2017 at 10:48 am #161928colby
ParticipantAllright, I just cleared yoga with my trainer!!! Â He’s a lifetime weightlifter/nutritionist, so I wasn’t sure how it would go over. Â He said if yoga’s helping me relax then just stick with it:)
August 3, 2017 at 9:41 am #161908colby
ParticipantThe strange part is that this whole transformation started over a year ago, but back then I had 3 or 4 cats inside, so I was using battery operated candles. Â I had no idea that real candles carried so much positive energy.
August 3, 2017 at 8:49 am #161894colby
ParticipantIndeed, I have chosen to finally assert my values in life, and I think that is what makes this so exciting for myself. Â I finally feel like I am standing for something.
August 3, 2017 at 8:12 am #161878colby
ParticipantActually, probably the biggest thing that has happened is that for the first time ever, I honestly do not care what others think of me. Â They either accept me or they don’t, and that’s their problem.
August 3, 2017 at 8:04 am #161872colby
ParticipantAnita, I would be honored to share more about my awakening. Â As I said, I have pretty much embraced the minimalist lifestyle, along with that I have stopped watching tv per se. Â I “cut the cord” over a year ago, and now I find that most of what I watch are relaxation programs such as naturevisiontv, nature relaxation, etc. Â I also used to have a brush pile in my backyard for the area critters to use, which I got rid of and started landscaping my yard. Â Ironically, my cats have been spending tons more time in my yard since I cleaned it up. Â I’ve been using meditation to curb my stress more than I used to, I have started to turn back to the mother Earth for comfort instead of to societies trappings. Â I’m also wanting to go back to yoga instead of weight training. Â I’m just not sure how I could break that to my trainer.
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August 1, 2017 at 8:12 am #161543colby
ParticipantRecovery has been slow for me, but I am starting to see a light at the end of the tunnel. Â Like I mentioned earlier, I am starting to make lifestyle changes, possibly a new awakening. Â I have now ditched sodas for things like chamomile and lavender, and green teas. Â On top of that, I haven’t had caffeine in 10 months.
July 30, 2017 at 1:21 pm #161132colby
ParticipantI tried volunteering at our local humane society for awhile, but it is not a no-kill shelter, so the experience ended up being more depressing than gratifying. Â As far as I know, that’s about all the options there are for volunteer services here.
July 29, 2017 at 11:06 am #160972colby
ParticipantThen for now I’ll work on making my house more serene, since that’s what I’ve got the most work into already:)
July 29, 2017 at 9:54 am #160954colby
ParticipantI must agree with you here. Â I’m kind of feeling mixed about everything right now though, to be honest. Â I like this development, but at the same time, it’s so much change all at once. Â I’m trying my hardest just to let the universe unfold as it should.
July 29, 2017 at 8:52 am #160936colby
ParticipantI don’t know, this all kind of happened at the same time, I knew I needed to do something different with my life, just didn’t know what; and I needed to keep my mind off of my cat. Â Before I knew it it had been a month, and I’d kept my house spotless that whole time.
July 29, 2017 at 8:18 am #160916colby
ParticipantAnother thing that has happened lately that I can’t really explain, I have had the urge to start practicing yoga again. Â Which would be great if I didn’t have a lifetime membership to a weightlifting gym, and a trainer that stays on my butt.
July 29, 2017 at 8:03 am #160914colby
ParticipantAn “awakening”? Â I had never thought of this, I thought I was just keeping myself busy to try to keep my mind off losing my cat. Â I know I am not and have not been living up to my potential, so that may have something to do with the recent change.
July 28, 2017 at 3:42 pm #160832colby
ParticipantThe actual injury is as healed as it can get. Â There is scar tissue, and I do have an occasional seizure, but that’s pretty much it. Â As for my parents involvement in my life, I feel I can safely say that I have never seen another person my age who is as close to their parents. Â The thing in jr high, I think “accident” might be too strong of a word, but in short, I was bullied and didn’t realize it until it was too late to do anything about it. Â I kind of feel that is part of the reason that I am alone right now.
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