Dear Soma,
Do you believe in soulmates, it could be of the same sex. wrong or bad is subjective. Emotionally happiness is all that matter. If you truly happy being with another person, it doesn’t matter if its a male or female after all everyone wants to live a happy life. But hurting people around you to make yourself happy is not right too. Don’t hate yourself for liking her or rejecting her. you are purely selfless here, you rejected her thinking of your parents which is remarkable. Your effort to make your parents proud of you shows that you are a pure heart and strong headed. So please dont hate yourself, this phase will pass by and stay strong. You are doing great and you will be ok.