I can relate to this, I am constantly putting others before me; I focus on their happiness over my own. If others are not happy with who I am what I do, then neither am I. Which is very hard because so often people are disappointed; there is no way I can be perfect. But when I only try to please others and they aren’t pleased it makes me feel useless. And even though it can be so hard to realize this and to overcome this struggle you just have to accept that people have problems of their own; comparing is self-destructive. I can guarantee someone compares themselves to you- we all do. When we can’t accept ourselves we look to others. But the reality is I or You could never be what they are and they could never be you. And while you may dislike yourself, you have so many advantages that make you unique and special and you have a different purpose than anyone else. And I always thought my purpose was to make others happy, and it still can be! But not at my expense; eventually we have to learn to love ourselves and admire our qualities like we do others. I know this is very hard to actually apply to real life but I hope it works well for you, I will be trying myself. 🙂

I can relate to your emptiness. It sort of feels numb; there is something missing and you’re looking for it. I can almost promise you that this guy will not give it to you. It’s hard to accept and to let him go, I know this, but you have to choose people who choose you. It is only hurting yourself to go for a guy you know you cannot have right now. Don’t choose to hurt yourself. The emptiness will only grow. Sometimes I sit there and I want to erase myself. I don’t want to be here and I never want to come back. But the reality is, you have to be. You need to find the best out of this life. Even if this life treats you awfully. I hope it helps to find people you can relate with.