Ok so, Iām in high school and Iām really confused. So thereās this guy I liked throughout the end of 8th grade until the beginning of 10th grade, it was always on and off type of thing ig for me. He was difficult, but so was I. He like people but he was weird with relationships, he didnāt want a relationship but he wanted like a friends with benefits, sort of thing. I honestly just wanted someone there for me and like just to enjoy spending time with. I was always so freaked out and shy on dates whenever we tried that out. But like so was he, so it was really awful lol. Then there was this girl lily who was really gorgeous, and he started to get a thing for her, and like that hurt. And so one day he gets the ācourage to tell meā that he liked both of us, and that he chose me. And I know like that when u like someone there shouldnāt be a choice but sometimes we just canāt help ourselves, itās natural to like multiple people, but he shouldnāt have told me that. But at least he was honest and stuff! He was always straight up with me which I respect. I mean we were still kids and stuff so as much as Iād like to deny it, I was kinda childish, ugh 9th grade me is blah. Haha. Anyways we were close, I told him a lot of stuff I never even told my best friends or my parents. He was always one to listen. And I wouldāve done the exact same for him. And did. We would text and call a lot. Some of our calls were really long, 6hrs one time. So yea we really liked eachother, Iām really confused if I loved him or not. Iām pretty sure I did at one point, but just little things kinda made it go away. Like Iād walk up to him and his friends and then heād grab me and like touch my butt. But 9th grade me was naive. Iām pretty mad at myself taht I let that happen. I just liked him so much idk. But yea. So 10th grade me got control and had an idea of what I wanted. And just cut him off. He knew he did jerky things to me. Heās texted me āheyā a couple of times this year but it led to a short convo and that was it. So second semester me. Last night we had a concert and I kept practicing and heād say āyou got This girlā as a joke. And idk weird stuff lol. TAHTS just how he is. And kept saying hi to me. We had finished a dance show last night and Iām packing up all my costumes and all of a sudden i see this yellow rose ,that our teacher got presented, get dropped right in front of me and Iām so confused liek āwas that for me?ā And Iām sitting on the floor asking to my friends ādid u see who threw that?ā It wasnāt a rude throw like it just plopped right in front of me. So I was confused but I just packed it like āaw that was sweetā. So I go out to dinner with family and during dinner HE texts me liek ādid u get the roseā and I knew it was him, deep down I knew thereās a possibility it was him. So then idk all these feelings come back. So now Iām confused ugh! Someone please help meee!! Like what should I do? I said thank you ans everything for it. Just liek I said after that we texted a little. But then he just mustāve gone to sleep. Because he never responded but didnāt leave me on read.
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