Hi Tannhäuser – I oddly found this thread googling a mantra I like, but I was captivated by your story. I have read through most of the pages. I am so sorry you are going through this. Kundalini can definitely reek havoc in peoples lives and a lot of people don’t talk about it. I had a terrible Kundalini experience in 2017 that I thought was going to ‘crack open my mind’ to a point of no return as well, like you previously stated many times. I felt my entire body burning for months. I’ll tell you whats helped for me. Abraham Hicks, you can google her and just start listening to her videos and since you are ‘awakened’ a lot of the times, it will seem like she is speaking directly to you. Cat Cow kundalini yoga pose has helped. Prayer has helped a lot. I know you say you don’t believe in God, but you believe in Artemis correct? Can you pray to her? I am also curious as to why you said she doesn’t want to be called mary anymore and wants to be called Artemis because I got the exact same download. OK? So you are getting valid information. I hope that gives you some comfort. Also, look, you have been doing this for 6 years now and are still sane, so hopefully that can give you some comfort? You mention your parents a lot, but do not mention friends. Could you join a meditation, spiritual or yoga group so you can have some people who have had similar experiences in your life and maybe that will help you feel less isolated. Joan Borysanko also has a lot of talks that help, you can google her. Exercise has helped me also, And also laying directly on the earth, not just your feet, can help ground the energy when its intense. You can also ask the higher beings to make it less intense. You can request this. Do you believe in help from angels? You can ask them as well. You are not alone! We are all in this together. Blessings.