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April 5, 2021 at 9:49 am #377244GigiParticipant
I have left home since I was 15 and really navigated life and world on my own since then. I only get to see my parents when I go home to visit my grandmother who took me when i was child and saved me fr the abuse. I look up to her more as my mother. I now live in London. Thanks for everything Anita. Im moving on. Onwards and upwards.
April 4, 2021 at 12:50 pm #377201GigiParticipantHi Anita,
Once again thank you. I will have to let it go and let time heal my wound. I dont want any drama in my life. Forgiving him is a gift to myself. Im civil with my parents. Haven’t talked about it really. Maybe one day when I have the chance, I will so I can also heal from this.
April 4, 2021 at 12:09 pm #377197GigiParticipantThanks for the reply Anita. It did strike a chord to me what you said. I was physically abused by my mother. She thought it was her way of disciplining me as a child. But it was not. As a child I didn’t know why she did what she did. I was being hit by my mum with a hard stick and the anger and the humiliation I have experienced as a child.
I believe Im justified in harming him because he wronged me and I must get him to feel as bad I feel. So I completely believe I am right. There is no doubt or question this is what he deserves and I need him to do something, apologize or whatever to set things right.
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April 3, 2021 at 11:26 am #377140GigiParticipantThanks Anita!
I dont plan to really go further. I just wanted him to know how he made me feel thats why I made up the idea of handing the photos and chat history to his wife. Though I could have. Ot should I?
The problem with me is that Im not able process certain emotional states through a usual process. Meaning when I feel rejected or lied to or wronged I get caught. Im not able to feel bad and then move on. My mind gets gets caught and I obsess. I become enraged and can’t stop.
April 3, 2021 at 10:48 am #377132GigiParticipantto suffer and that I will let inform his wife of the exchanges. This was brought about my anger. And he replied. But the exchanges was too toxic.
April 3, 2021 at 10:41 am #377126GigiParticipantIt was an email asking him why he did what with the belief that I have a right to punish someone because he “wronged me” and I pursue actions with that intent
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