Sann

Your story resonates with me completely. I have suffered with the same issues you listed in your post for my entire life. I, too, am trying to work on some of these issues and it is not an easy road. Some days better than others. I look at self improvement as a two steps forward, one step back proposition. There are times where I get on a spiritual/self improvement path for several months and then fall off of it for a few months without even realizing it until something wakes me up and gets me back on the path. But I find that when I start back again, I am not starting from zero. All of the books I have read, videos I have watched, downloads I have listened to as well as the previous practice of meditation, etc. stay with you and are a foundation on which to build. Of all of the books that I have read, Eckart Tolle’s Power of Now and A New Heaven and A New Earth have had the greatest impact on me. If you really start absorbing the notion that in the present moment we have all that we need, it revolutionizes your thought process and your life. It is a simple notion, but not easy to put into practice but as time goes by, I find that you really can shift your thoughts and perspective 180 degrees in an instant. I try to look at others as unique artistic pieces of God with the same fears, thoughts, hopes and heartaches that I experience. In reality you and the other spirits inhabiting human forms on this planet are one and the same. Pinches of the same God consciousness manifested into human form. So you are really interacting with yourself when you interact with others. Many people are not aware of their higher selves and purpose so it can be challenging finding that compassion in your heart for them but always understand that others have deep pains as well and acting out on a superficial level is simply their attempt to manage that deep pain. I hope this didn’t ramble and helps out in some way. Keep on keeping on and good luck!