Hi

Whenever I read Sapnap, I feel that it is me who is talking. I could not have imagined to find someone exactly in my position and at the same point in time!
Are we soul-mates Sapnap? 😛

I am so happy that you are on your way. It is going to be a long and enduring journey and the easiest way to overcome all obstacles would be to keep improving and changing things around you. Also, just get actively involved in learning a new hobby. Anything that you’ve been wanting to do for a long time, this is YOUR TIME!

There are two more points I’d like to share.
Firstly, you have to understand who is the stronger person here? Is it you or is it that guy? Of course it is you. John mentioned it correctly that if he had to leave you he should have done it long back. Why did he do it when he found someone else? It is because he is a weakling and needs someone to lean on. For you, this is a golden opportunity to connect with yourself, to be independent once again. And thus explore the inner beauty of yourself and get closer to the divine.

Another point that you mentioned about being extraordinary, I totally agree with you. And how I can tell you this is because when my guy left me he told me that I should realise that I am special. And that I have a lot to do and achieve in life. Somewhere he knew that I was not doing justice to myself because I had stopped being me. He could see my inner potential but I kept subsiding it down.

But after all this I felt, there is no such thing as inner potential. We all are gifted with it. However, not many realise it. You and I are blessed that we understand this thing about ourselves. What will truly make you happy and successful is the hard work, the focus and determination with which you run after your dreams. Stop thinking too much about your future, your past etc. Just turn off your PC and begin to do some activity. Clean up your house, change the bedsheets, complete a pending assignment or may be even hit the gym. Anything! Just go out there and do it! Keep doing it till you’re drop dead tired! Grab this opportunity of not being answerable to anyone!

And in the end, let’s close down this thread and move to a nicer forum, maybe a motivation or something where we can discuss our daily achievements, our progress and just come out of this vicious circle of “Missing-Sobbing”. That is what is going to make the difference.

PS: This is my last reply on this thread. I am glad that I came across this. Thank you Sapnap for putting it all into words for me and help me gauge myself in the process.
Hope to see you all on some more amazing journeys of life that we can share.

Love