Hi Maria,
It sounds to me like you are not seeing a reflection of your self and your deepest desires in the life your have currently created for yourself.
from what you describe, the path you chose has not eventuated in the outcome you really desire.
The way I believe you can get back to that path is as other people have said in this forum take a radical look at what you would most desire to do then take the actions it takes to get there. I read an inspiring blog today that suggested that before inspiration strikes you you have to take action- don’t wait to be inspired. move towards something new and the inspiration and passion will come.
On another note, your comments about how hard it is to travel as a life choice seems strange to me, in my country (New Zealand)m we are so far away from the rest of the world that we expect to travel to the rest of the world as part of our early adulthood so we all make plans to get some sort of transferable work skill set that will keep us employed while we travel. this is so common and we have no pressure to pick a sensible career path at your age at all!
So maybe your current mindset is also holding you back with preconceptions about how impossible it would be for you to live out your dreams. I suggest you look into stories and forums of people who did travel and find a way that you could do this too. when you decide what to do magical things can happen to drop into place. 🙂