I’m so sorry to hear about the pain you are going through. I too am going through something similar. I have three kids by I man who makes me hate myself like I’m this terrible person. I’ve been taking care of three children by myself. Now this man is working and everything dosent has a reason why he dosen’t help. Didn’t buy the kids anything for Christmas. The crazy thing about it is that he’s trying to talk back to me but i’m like no you haven’t been there when ive needed your help with the kids. I just want him to leave me alone. It still hurts sometimes the pain of it not working out but I think me letting go is the right thing to unless we get councling. Any advice would be greatly appreciated.