Also I was trying to understand a very difficult  situation, and maybe I need to step back.  It’s ok if you would rather not comment.   I won’t take offence.

(at least I think it’s amnesia.   I’m not that knowledgeable over that and dissociation).

Dear Anita,

Thank you for replying.

I think I’m.being or may be scapegoated and because noone wanted me to talk about anything, but instead denied anything had happened to me, and told me I thought things had happened due to mental illness ( and it wasn’t).

It seems now a lot of people don’t want to talk to me, but it was a no win situation.   It seems I was expected to stay mentally ill because others wanted me to.

I I lost relationships, hopes, educational opportunities etc, health.  I don’t think some of these people will be happy until I’m dead.   I tried religion but this broke down when I noticed that some things in the Bible didn’t make sense and realised there’s circular reasoning in the NT.   Plus although there’s goodness in it, there’s also hate and seemed that there was discouragement to think for yourself.

Also, I’d be grateful if you could offer any explanation for the concept of evil spirits.   I realise I’ve made lots of mistakes and judged things wrongly at times  but the medicine I was given has been known to affect judgment and I couldn’t comprehend that for years this had gone on.   Several things happened to make me give up wanting to work on some relationships.   I think I should have walked away a long time ago.   I don’t think there’s much time left.