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Thanks for replying. I ran 8 miles a day 5-6 days a week since I was 18. I also went to the gym. I also went to dance classes , sometimes in the same day, sometimes on the one or two days I took off from running. I am vegetarian . I was also in therapy since 18. Two years ago I was found to have hyperactive thyroid. I was given radiation and then had hypothyroidism. Though I slowed down a lot I still push to exercise. I was always outside. The feelings however have always been the same. Emptiness, confusion, not knowing what I want , and being very needy yet shutting
People out. I am 41 now, I will say it has gotten not worse but different since 2 years when my thyroid went under. Before I had tons of energy and anxiety and severe bouts of depression leading to overdoses as I could not handle emotional pain. Now, it’s just plain fear and sadness . I don’t drink enough water this is true but everything else I did so how is my brain still not functioning correctly after twenty something years?