Well, first off, I know all about affirmations. My first therapist had me doing them when I was 18. Trust me, when I say I’ve tried everything I tried that as well. After my last breakup I decided to visualize being in a loving relationship by Christmas. Christmas came and went. By now it was a habit so I though okay, I’ll do it for another year. Two more years passed and I’m still alone.

So, yes, if nothing has changed in my entire adult life it’s hard for me to believe in some magical change. That is why I’d like to know how to accept the situation and live the best I can with the hand I’ve been dealt.

The reason I start out by saying I’m ugly is to head people off at the pass. I figure if I let people know I’m aware of my looks they won’t feel the need to tell me. I’m not going to just stop believing I’m ugly because I have a mirror. And in spite of all the fluffy b.s. people try to tell me, I’m fully aware that women are judge by appearance. I’ve yet to hear a man say he asked a girl out because she volunteers at an animal shelter.

I also realize everyone has problems regardless of their relationship status. However, I also know when I’m with a man I feel necessary. My life has purpose. Alone no one notices whether or not I exist.