Oh my goodness.. U were right when u wrote a response to my disappointment other day, it’s like if I just had de ja vu. I have been experiencing the exact same things with my ex. I can’t tell you all of the advice my friends have given me and all of the false hope I have felt throught this process. It’s so hard to make sense of a lot of what’s going on…I clearly remember the days when my ex told me that if only I knew how much he loved me, that I was amazing, and that a future with me would be the best thing for him. He would look for me non stop and wait for me after work to walk me to the car, and he would txt me quite a bit…..it has all just stopped. You and I should hang out, lol;). On a more serious note, it’s taking time for me this time to deal with it all, idk your age but I’m 38 yrs old and I guess I really thought this guy was the one. You see I’ve been divorced twice and have had several long term relationships but for some reason they just haven’t worked out for me…kinda feel like I’m just meant to ride solo. Journaling helps…I can’t say when it’ll help see positive side to doing but I can say that my journal is filled with so much emotion and hurt and questions. From the outside looking in, everyone who has ever gone through what you and I have have survived and gotten something better. I believe in a higher being and that He has a plan for all of us. We are not always gonna have our every hearts desire but all we can do is wait adm trust in what ever that plan may be…even though I’ve expressed grief, anger, impatience, and doubt I now see that if I’ve survived the hardest things a person can possibly face….divorce, physical and verbal abuse, and being left a single mom with four kids with out any help, I can get through this…and so can you. We can’t see the forest from the trees but I know that we and whoever is facing similar problems can rise above this and come out not only ahead but with more blessings because we gave each relationship our all.