yes, I have felt like that; I intellecttually run thru the litany of reasons to support the “kind and forgiving” response, reaction, thought, but find there
is a part of me feeling sad, mad, hurt or just WRONG! I have come to see that there are parts of me that long to feel all the “right thoughts”
and parts of me that just absolutely WONT. I then long to share those parts with a friend of family that would lovingly listen to the “wrong bad thoughts”
without telling me how wrong that is or preach all the loving kindness I already know!

when I cannot find this, sadly most of the time, I have to do it for myself.

I go into those hurting parts and ask them to tell m what’s up. I listen to them, love them, and strive to
give them what they are seeking; just to be heard and loved anyway. I tell these parts I understand why they feel whatever they feel and let them know it is ok.

I KNOW now that this is ok, and that in alowing these feelings to be healed I can
get to the stronger part of me that I allow to reign; the loving, forgiving self who I choose to give the ultimate power!

I no longer fear they will be allowed to run rampant and over ride the higher parts of myself I gave to love. I can let them be heard
and trust Love will win.

xoxoxo