Amanda – I’m really sorry you’re going through this. I can imagine that experiencing so much all at once can be overwhelming.
Honestly, have you considered speaking with a counselor? I really think with all that you’re going through, it may be a good idea. Your community college may have free or low-cost counseling available. You also mentioned God. If you go to a church, they may have services available. And a lot of communities offer low-cost services based on your ability to pay.
I hope this helps and that you find some peace.
Best,
Ed