I am not sure Anita it can help it can even make problem even in new topic I can not explain more just I can say it can be some thing happens inleggal in my name in his company and its complex so thanks for your care dear Anita I sign some paper like sharing in his company and face for some deals ….

I am not going back to my home land I am going to other state but even in some profiles in internet I have very waooo job title that it is fake I don’t know what to do even this title and story about education it was related to him I don’t know how to fix it and it can really effected to my future life and the last effect is for finding job

Dear Anita

I do not know how to start. I deleted him from my life but yet he is in my mind din my heart I can not control my tears I am worried I can not find any body like him and fall in love again .I know it’s the best I left him but Anita there is one problem that I can not write here I am worried about write here is it other way I can contact you and explain this in email for you please is it possible

Sure dear Anita take care of your self please I like to talk with you

Dear Anita thanks God you are herenow when I am reading this tears is in my eyes . I am so happy I can share Evey things with you thank you so much .

I know we have difference hours but even reading your message after 15 16 hours charge me again and give me motivations I deleted pics burn letters keep some cloths for wearing and I said to my self don’t think and remind him at all .now I feel more peace just I am worried about what will be happend in future no body knows what future hold for me it make me little worried .and because some time I did this horrible huge terrible mistake I am worried I do it again .today I was reading and searching I don’t know am I bypolar person manic depression  in stainless moody I don’t know really I remember one time he told me oh Eli because you are not staible and you don’t know what do you want I can not count on you and you don’t give me any power to move mountain for you and leave my wife .

Is it really some thing wrong at me

Dear Anita

I hope now when you are reading you will be fine and happy. Dear Anita I stop check my phone or check him even . And today one of my friend from other country contact me and ask me how is it and I told her don’t ask about him we are not together and it was the first person who I told this to her. Now I have more freedom but I don’t want jump from this relationhsip to other relationship now I feel better just I am so scared how to control my life with out him support my self and I always be depended on him . Now I must just depend on my self .

Some times I miss his words his fake hopes nice words he said me all the memories we had and I ask my self is it  possible after him I accept other man and replace with him.

But for sure I understand I never try to get close to married man in the end I am looser.its me who hurting so much .now I am sure he is sitting with his family and enjoy his life and thinking about find other lover  because it his life style . All the talking about I am his first and last love his internal love for ever he never leave me he want me for ever he see his future with me he only love me he only want me need me miss me

He called me his treasure and he never loose his treasure he called me my beautiful princess love of my life my oxygen I can not live with out you …..my god how he knows to play with my emotin he knows I never heard such words in my life no body love me and say these words and it was my weak point .

Some people around me know about him not so much full of details just know I have bf so now it’s time I say we break up finish and I am moving to other city I hope Evey thing go on fine .and I always be like this I ma just worried again some think happens I back to him …and I am sure I am not ready for dating and new relationship

It’s like big hole in my heart Evey few mins like stupid girl I check my phone to see is he messaging me or not and I ask Eli even if he message you do you want to answer do you want start again waste your life again you are waiting for what

Dear Anita

I am thinking how much I was blind I did not see truth I was angry at his wife I must be nagry at him and myself for wasting 5 years of my life .

I don’t know how to explain some times I was in love with him die for him call him my love and now it’s the end.

It really Brocken my heart why I trust him an dbelieve him why I let him use me like this

How much I was dump stupid I did not earn any thing just some stupid travels and gifts and what else if I spend all this time and emotion for right person now I must be in more happiness and peace what do you think ?