First off,
Thank you so much Sierra! It is hard being treated in a way that because I’m young, my feelings aren’t authentic. Thank you very much for your input, and it has definitely help me reevaluate this situation…
And anita, thank you! I try to keep myself balanced out and also try to be confident in myself. As I read your reply, I began to analyze my younger years of life. I am adopted, so as a younger child I always doubted myself; I was constantly wondering if there were something wrong with me, something that would make my biological parents choose to “get rid of” me. I had also dealt with some very cruel, non-immediate, family members as a child as well and it does seem plausible that I could have unconciously built up some sort of self defensive hurt or an untrusting mindset.
Thank you both so much, much love to you both! 🙂