Jen Pearl, I keep getting to this point and getting stuck because I dont know which thoughts to trust. Im not sure which ones are deep revelations about myself and which are things I just talked myself into.
Thanks for the positive responses everyone. Jess, Ill see if I can try CBT. Ive googled it before but couldnt find anything specific about actually implementing it.

Thank you for the responses, everyone. I guess I should tell you that I have tried this before and I have trouble actually looking at limiting beliefs objectively because of what my limiting beliefs are telling me. lol

Thank you all for the positive responses. I dont know why, but I keep forgetting youtube exists. lol. I have been meaning to start exercising again as it was once a very big part of my life. However, I dont get much done when Im not feeling well mentally. All I want to do is rest. Hopefully, when i stop working weird hours, I will have some time to start again. As far as meditation goes, I have never quite been able to get my mind to a calm place while trying to do so. Its like somebody saying “dont think about a horse”. Whats the first thing I think of? As far as having an array of things we do, I am just at the tail end of getting my drivers license back which should help me to be able to learn more things also. Not having it for 8 years has kind of put a damper on being able to go do much of anything. I have some things that make me happy, they are just things I either have lost ambition for or require equipment I dont currently have. Either way, thanks for the responses. They give me hope but even more questions.

Giacomo