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DiaParticipantHi Gen,
Thanks so much for your reply. You nailed it : perimenopause is a rollercoaster. Mine is feom hell :-(.
Thank you for the forum suggestions . I feel lost , like everything seems meaningless. Yesterday I saw a photo of my beloved mum (in it she was healthy ) . I wept the whole night away. A year has passed & I seem to still be in a state of shock & disbelief. Its so tough. Nobody cares. Nobody gets it. People make inane suggestions & expect me to * move on* ( what does that even mean ?) .
The illnesses i have plus the grief makes me so depressed . I dont wanna get out of bed most mornings.
DiaParticipantHello The Switch,
Firstly thank you so much for your reply and kind, supportive words. So much of what you wrote reasonates with me. I always lived in fear of losing my mother & now i’m living in a nightmare. I’m a huge worrywort too. I envy those who are free spirited, carefree.
Prior to my mom’s passing I’ve never experienced death at such close quarters. Sure I lost my grandparents, an aunt & uncle but in my culture children even teenagers are shielded by family members from the death of the elders.
My mom suffered tremendously during the last 2 years of her life . I literally saw the life go out of her. Needless to say its highly traumatic.the visuals of her pain , suffering & death are imprinted in my soul. Initial months post her demise i was numb , thereafter grief & depression have hit me like a ton of bricks. I question everything. Everything seems worthless. Ive joined online grief forums, seeing a counsellor but in vain . I feel like ive lost myself . I miss my mother every second of everyday . Its heartbreaking. Add to that insomnia, phobias , anxiety, physical illness. I’m at my wits end here. Sorry for going on & on but your words gave me comfort. Thank you . God bless.
DiaParticipantHello everyone . New here . How does one start a new topic? I need help badly. I’m sorry to hijack this thread but i’ve nowhere else to turn . I’ve suffered anxiety since I was little. Anxious, stressed, nervous :thats me. Living like this has taken a toll . I’m 40 now& facing the worst period of my life. I lost my dear beloved mom a year ago. She was everything to me. She was very sick for 15 years & I was her caregiver. We were always together 24/7. As long as she was alive there was hope. Life was tough due to the various illnesses she had but my primary mission in life was her well being & happiness. Post her demise the world has ended for me. I’m terribly panicky, scared, nervous, depressed. Have insomnia & was put on anti anxiety medication to help me sleep. I resisted but eventually gave in as I went months without sleeping a week. Past one year since mom has gone i’ve hit rock bottom. Every minute is spent in anxiety & fear. Scared to go out, scared to be alone , scared to do anything . No motivation or interest in anything . I am seeing a counsellor but getting nowhere. My family is concerned & frustrated with me. What does’nt help is that I suffer from a few ailments that feed the anxiety plus the anxiety excaberates the ailments. I dont know what to do to heal myself. I feel exhausted, sad, lonely & anxious. I suspect i have OCD about disease & dying. Watching my belived mom suffer & die has broken my heart & killed my spirit. What makes matters worse is that I suspect i ‘m going through perimenopause but my doctors are dismissive. I just dont know what to do . Im stuck in a persistent fight or flight mode. Somebody help please. I’m fed up. Thank you .
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