Thank you so much @Anita. Yeah because he was my first love so I really don’t know how I should behave in a relationship. I just think boys are in general very insensitive so I use it as an excuse for everything. Besides my ex bf always told me that I was too inexperienced and sensitive that I could easily get hurt. I always don’t know if I did my best to save the relationship or it may be my fault to get hurt of what he said…
But thank you. Writing my story down and having a person like you on the internet to listen to my story is a good way to look back on everything that happened. And it’s now easier to let go and learn something from this break up.
Yeah I’m ready for my new journey and I hope everything will be alright. I hope things will be alright for you too, sweet random person ❤️

• This reply was modified 9 years, 4 months ago by Daniella.

Dear Karlo,
Thank you so much for your kind words. I really appreciated what you wrote down here and I feel so much better. I always think if I am wrong to leave my bf in his most difficult time. I truly think the most common & big mistake that Depressed people make is pushing away their loved ones. I really wish you and my ex will let people into their lives and help you guys instead of suffering it alone, you are still the fighter of your own life, but being next to your loved ones will at least make you feel better about yourself and give you unlimited energy to face all the challenges.
Don’t worry some day some one will come and love you unconditionally. I don’t know much about how a depressed person feels, but from a perspective of someone who has a depressed partner, I think I can give you a few advices:
– If you need your own spaces, just tell your partner. But make sure you are still available to her somehow, like reply to some of her texts, messages etc
– Let your gf help you. Trust her. If she “failed”, you learn a lesson. If she “succeedes”, you two will experience a wonderful thing called love. Everybody has her/his own down phases, believe me every girl/woman wants to protect her loved one 🙂
After all, let not only yourself but your special one have a CHANCE to love you too. I wish you luck in everything in life, I hope all your dreams come true and you finally found your dream girl!