Thanks for the reply Anita.
Perhaps I am inaccurately assuming people are happy and have more friends etc.
well I am quite a social person and always like to be the center-of-attention. for e.g. I would be paranoid if someone doesnt text me, include me in plans or starts befriending people i dont like. i don’t mind “chilling” out by myself but do like feeling important by my friends – not so much by my family. i actually prefer socialising than hanging out with family at times incase i miss out on gossip, making new friends and all that.
I wasn’t a lonely child surprisingly as I always had friends/people around me.