Hi Sandy, I know this is old but I am new. I was personally touched by your story as I am going through something similar. I think what the Ruminant said has a lot of merit. We do have to adapt because life is constantly changing. However I think sometimes we need to change our mind-set so we can look outside the box sort of speak or look outside of ourselves. I have once said, our problems are sometimes beyond our PERSONAL UNDERSTANDING. So make it someone else’s problem (not literally); but how would you help them? Sometimes we are so busy trying to control a situation we can’t see all of the available options, we have our blinders on. So when we try to give someone else advice we can sometimes come from a broader perspective. So maybe you should really think about how you may be hindering yourself. If you go in to something with the same attitude at some point you will realize you are getting the same results. Maybe in this case the same result is you trying to put yourself in the right spot and feeling like oh this is not it, or i’m here and it goes bad. Maybe you need to take advice, be that advice adapt, or get more information about what it is you want to do and a different way to make it happen.

Either way, good luck, I know it will work out