My dear Nico,
I am a school going girl and i don’t think that my advice will be of any use to you as i have not seen the world as much as you have….but, i do want to tell you that nothing can be that bad for you to take an extreme decision as suicide…!! I understand that you have not had a pretty childhood and you feel a bit bad about yourself..but that was in the past…. Please please don’t let it all affect your future…. And i feel that when you think your dad is crossing limits, then you can do two things-either try to calm him down by reasoning with him….or slightly express your displeasure about him acting that way…

You can’t ignore what your sister said but at the same time don’t let it affect you to such a great extent.Things may be different with her and different with you…Just trust in yourself….just a little trust to begin with,and then you will surely see a positive change..!! Your dad has become old,i’m sure he too misses you.And whenever you feel low about yourself….just think-you are born to change the world,so don’t give up without even trying to change atleast one person….

You can’t stop your eyes from seeing the ugly things and nither can you stop your ears from listening to the abuses…but you can control what decisions you make from your heart..even when we are passive some thoughts will get impressed on our mind…..it depends on us how we choose to react to those thoughts..There’s always a silver lining,all you have to do is look for it…

I know its easy for me to just advice you about your life..but its you who will choose how to live it…

Loads of best wishes for your future dear,

Crystal..