Hi, I’m sorry you are feeling so bad about everything. I understand how frustrating it must be that the conservative world that encouraged you to avoid experiences now seems to have changed their tune. This is life. Everything is constantly changing. We are not the same from one day to the next, nothing is. From reading your message it’s clear that you followed what others advised, which is natural enough and I can see the why you did what you did. And it is done. But I also read that you want to continue on like this, you choose to. Even the title of your message states this. This does not have to be so. You choose everything. If you want love you will find it. You only need to be open to it. But you are already putting barriers up, saying the woman must be inexperienced, and no women are because of this or that. Take a breath. How you have lived so far is fine. It is neither right, nor wrong. If you truly want love be open to it. She may be a divorcee but will you care when you are in love? Try not to be so prescriptive and in control of absolutely everything. All is certainly not lost and we can achieve whatever we wish, it just may not come in the form we expect. Be open to this. Sending love and blessings.