I don’t want a LDR, so if she and I really want to be committed to each other then moving to her country will be a option. But thats a huge commitment! IF that ever was a discussion between then we’ll figure out when the time comes. So yea I am secretly holding on to hope yet I am going through the pain of letting it go.

I can see why it’ll be harmful for me (I don’t see what will be harmful for her though) to hold on to those words and hope it’ll become more once we meet up.
As I said before, it is already too late. I’m still planning to visit her next year. I am not expecting anything from her but her friendship. This attachment I have with her is strong and I am too stubborn to let it go.
I’m basically nervous and afraid of commitment with anyone because I never had it before. So if that person wants to commit with me then they must be patience. It is what it is with my situation, I tried my best to get the distance yet she made the effort to keep me near by staying in touch.
I will always be her friend and be thankful for everything she did for me. I am moving on in my own way. Thank You for listening

She basically rushed into this friendship and I basically became emotionally attached to her. We both did.

My current friend was my listener (therapist) on a free therapy site. I told her everything about my heart ache of how my ex best friend treated me before I broke the friendship off. My current best friend was not suppose to talk to me offsite, it was against the rules of the site cause we were anonymous. But she wanted to see my art and then she add me on Facebook. And she kept putting in more of the effort in this long distance friendship than i ever did. She got so close before i even broke it off with my ex best friend.

This is why i have this attachment to my current best friend.

Yes, I’d told her that I must let go of that “hope” she given me because I can not focus on myself. My mind is to set on her and the hope that I never had the time to actually explore myself. Who I am, what I want in life and to love myself first. She encourages me to do this, she knows I need to stay focus on my life cause she knows I will give her the whole world if I am so focused on a potential relationship in the future for her. The distance is a major issue here, and it’ll be another whole year that i have to wait to go see her. I dont want to limit myself fully on her when there is a whole life ahead of me.

I am secretly holding on to that hope. All she knows is that I am moving on and living my life while we still have a good friendship from afar. I had to tell her about this cause we are so close and stay in touch that I couldn’t focus on myself. She was the one to put “relationship” on the table, while I already friend zone her after I expressed my feelings to her. I know how I am when I care for someone, I reject myself to give that person happiness over mine.

She wants to be part of my life, she said this to me last year. I didnt understand how some young woman wanted me in her life when we never met in person but she and I build this friendship together and we don’t want to lose one another.

If she finds love I must be happy for her if I find love then I know she be happy for me as well. But I know deep down that I must see her, I am working very hard putting in more hours to save money to visit her and other countries in the UK. I already plan to visit the UK before I met her now I really want to focus on my euro trip cause I made a best friend who i love dearly there.

That is the discussion I had with my therapist (and to my current friend), is to focus on the here and now. Which i struggle with, I worry about the future all the time. I set goals and achieve them but my hopes of finding true love do hang over my head. I may find someone in the future, maybe her or maybe someone else. Its just i need to get out there more make time to see the world instead of going to my 9 to 5 job everyday 

I have no trust issues within my family, I am emotionally attached to my family and the friends I grew up with. The people in my life now  that I am only close to is my family, my  best friend that I call my sister and my new life current friend

I’m confused about your question, what are you asking?

Yes, I am emotionally attached to her as she became attached to me as well. She practically rushed the friendship, we became so close so unexpectedly. She was very willing to help me through my heartbreak, supporting and encourging me through the whole process even though I was hurt and afraid to get close to anyone since my break up. As many times that I try to be distant she’ll tap on my wall that I’ll open for her to let her in even though I have trust issues for some reason I just couldn’t stop going to her whenever my anxiety takes over. I knew deep down that I needed to take a step back of this new found friendship cause of my attachment was very serious that I was obsessed for her comfort. I’ve stated this to her many times last year, no matter what she wanted to stay by my side. She let me in her life and I let her in mine.

I wonder why she was doing this, I began to think she just wanted my attention alone or using me in some way. But she wasn’t, she was desperate for a friend cause of her abusive ex (they dated 2014-15 18 months) limited her from a social life from family and her friends. Once she finally left him she wanted to explore her freedom and become a better person than she once was before. She had a hard life in the past.

She and I are very similar, we are both big hearted, selfless, honest and true types of people that will attract narcissist. We also have a good sense of humor and love to talk about anything. As of today I call her my best friend.

All I know what this friendship is is two women who had their heart broken by someone we thought would love us, women who want to be seen for who we are and loved for who we are. Women that need to focus on ownselves to find love within. she has her whole life of ahead of her, she needs to grow and move forward with her life to find herself. As do i.

I have already had my talks to my therapist about my realtionship with my new found friend, I understand what I am going through with this attachment. I just need to move on cause we have our own separate lives and we need to stay focus on our own selves for now. She’ll always be on my mind and I will always wonder if we ever will be more than what it is now. But I have to get my head out of the clouds and live my life here. I am so looking forward to actually meeting her next year. I just struggle with my feelings for her from time to time.