Dear Anita

Ya, that is what am I trying I means. “What motivates you to replying post here”. I feel what you mention is correct, especially the part when human feel anxiety means low tolerance on stress, challenges and discomfort. My mind hard to get into positive mind instantly when I am stuck. I have been trying lots of ways, exercise workout, journal, or anything that possible. But don’t know why sometiems I feel those things that I am doing like not working at all, it doesn’t comes to what I expected. Still on and off down, and this influence not only mental sometimes even physical illness. I hardly find the balance. I know is all take time, and need to be patience. But sometimes I cant accept I became like this. I feel so lost. I know all the human got their own problems and some maybe their situation is worse than I. But when you are sad. you’ll feel you are like the only one facing this problem. Maybe I am just too perfectionist? I hope everything is according what I do think? While when the situation doesn’t come, I can’t accept it? But aren’t people suppose to think the good way? Then how to adjust when it doesn’t come to what you expected? This is so disappointing.

Dear Anita

I see. I also tend to forget the advise when I am in panic mode. So I always need refer this kind of positive blogs. But sometimes it won’t instantly come into the peace mind as I wish until I am in my own comfort zone. But anyway, I am still trying hard in any possible ways which hope my anxiety condition getting better. Cause I will think of my family & friends and the loved one is around, no matter  how anxious of my life, I still need to continue living. Can’t give up easily, although sometimes feel like what I did is like useless, but I know some people may have the life which is worsen than I. I think my post here you are the only one reply me, haha, thanks for talking to me. Do you mind share about what makes you here in this web or forum? I am actually trying to journal about my own daily life or goals to track my own progress, because in some articles showing that this help, but I am those easy give up type of people. Hope I can insist with it, like my daily homeworks.

I don’t really attend any psychotherapy so far because it is costly and most of the time, i do understand it all rely my own thoughts to help myself. If not it may not help much, so I always share to my close friend or bf, but sometimes if you share too much the same thing always i feel it may make people fed up and feel I am so stubborn to keep thinking on it, til I found this tiny buddha, this forum, so I decided to take a try to write, to seek more positive vibes. My origination of anxiety, actually I also not too sure, but my anxiety always come from hand palm and feet sweating all the time. When this happens will link me think that my anxiety is happen, but sometimes without anxiety also may happen, I am quite confused too. I just know I am not those adaptable to new environment or new people easily type, if I not familiar I will become nervous. I used to be in the comfort zone. But I know in life you can’t be in the comfort zone always. I can’t be too excited and nervous or else my sweaty symptom will happened. Then I will start thinking if people shake my hand or hold my hand, maybe they will feel disgusting? And sometimes if I go to the shoes store to try sandals or shoes without need to wear socks, if they seen my sweaty feet, like so embarrassing. So I also less buy sandals kind of shoes, or whichever go out also wear those shoes with socks type more. Sometimes I even need to use handkerchief to wipe my sweaty palm. Actually my friends and bf said this is just a small matter, I can actually ignore and don’t so care and assume so much about it. But lately if my nervous increase I will have diarrhoea condition(but this is last beginning of the year happens more) now actually lesser, maybe I can think positive sometimes already. But I think it begin sudd serious since I changed a new job and start driving. Actually sometimes I feel this is nothing to anxious at all, life is simple, haha, maybe I don’t find things that keep me motivated long time, and I used to be easy give up type of people, when I don’t really seen or feel the result.

But somehow I don’t understand why am I becoming like this. To be so concern on such issue. I am thinking sometimes maybe I am already the anxious person long time ago, just I less care about it and I live my life as usual. I didn’t think so much, is it age older cause us to be more overthinking? Cause now whichever I feel anxious I will run toilet and hand palm and feet sweating around, feel so uneasy, feel so bad seems this will always following me. I do cry because of I feel myself like abnormal, but some friends advise not to give up myself as long I am still alive, still got chance to improve, and ask me to enjoy life, relax and be happy, sometime I so can be like this, but sometimes not or most of the time, maybe I still don’t find the way yet.

Yes definitely! Sometimes I do feel calm, and I really wish it always be calm forever like this. But sometimes it don’t turn out what I wish~That is disappointing and will make me a bit hopeless and don’t know will it continue to be like this always. Half way will feel like giving up, is seems like the healing percentage only god knows how.. But you seems going well as you can write lots of advise here? You know earlier on I even thought is my health condition problem, so I went for medical check up, but the report turn out to be ok, so I know is all about mental issue, but this is weird, last time I don’t face this before. People said things happened for a reason and I didn’t know this reason is good or bad?

Dear Anita

Alright, maybe I always expect the fast result so I always stuck in the half way, I will to plan and execute it time by time.

Thanks a lot~

Thanks for the advise Anita. Actually my condition sometimes good, sometimes bad, I’m difficult to believe myself always even though i meet the sudden hiccups, it will make me back to square. The process I means~ Or this call not enough insist? How to make myself more brave in facing anythings?