Thank you rose tattoo, I am in so much pain. He keeps coming into my life and then changing his mind.. now ive found out he has a new girlfriend and he has told me he will never love me again, doesn’t care that he has hurt me and that I need to get out of his life 🙁 I feel so alone and heart broken. He is currently out partying as we speak and has told me I only ruin his day and too much and he has blocked me from being able to contact him at all. I am so confused.. a week ago he loved me 🙁

thank you so much for your kind words Jasmine. I know things will get easier, I just feel like ive lost a huge part of my life with him walking out.

I am trying to find the positives but at the moment it doesn’t appear there are any 🙁

thanks so much guys, I have told him if he really really needs someone to speak to, considering I know his background I will be there to listen. but other then that id like it if he could give me the space to move on 🙁

I appreciate all of your help

I think you might be right Will, it is such a hard situation but i am starting to realise all contact is always initiated by me. He never contacts me or makes an effort to try and keep me in his life… maybe I should stop and see if he even notices I am gone.

I have never lost a friend like this before, it is such a horrible experience. But i am a firm believer that everything happens for a reason so I will try my best to see the lesson in this situation

thanks Will

It appears we have all suffered the same kind of experience, Luke was also very nervous when it came to being intimate and said that I intimidated him and he had issues with it. I have known him for many years and he has never had this issue with any past girlfriends as he confessed to me so I ma not sure what exactly i did that made him so nervous. maybe it was because we were such good friend before hand and the transition was awkward. One thing i have noticed out of all of this is that it has brought me much closer to my mum. I had never really been that open with her with my feeling and im starting to think maybe this was the universes way of making me open up and share how i’m feeling or seek help. Since my first post Luke has called me a few times while drunk wanting me to go and see him, for all the wrong reasons. I chose not to do this as i feel that he does not have my best interests at heart and is obviously very confused about his own needs. He did tell me he is also seeing someone else which hurt but i expected. I hope that all of us can one day find peace in the lesson the world is trying to teach us through these experiences. I know that it has most definitely made me want to work on myself, find my faith in the universe and open up more to those who are there for me and are ready to be in my life which is something id always struggled with. As much as this all hurts now and as confusing as it is, I think this is probably for the best and maybe i needed to lose Luke to find myself..

I see what you mean there Bruno, he had always told me that he loves me and it was obvious toe everyone around as well, which is what really confuses me, because why would he be so willing to leave me and lose me if he really felt that way. He has had 2 girlfriends during our friendship, both of which lasted about a year but he never truly seemed happy with them. I was in a very difficult relationship on and off for 3 years during our friendship in which i was abused and went through a lot of bad stuff and in June last year my ex ended up taking his life. My friend Luke was there for through it all and its possible I was not ready to be in a relationship and maybe that showed. I have a lot to think about thats for sure. but unfortunately for now it appears I have lost him and distance is the only option 🙁

I think you might be right there, he said that ” I didn’t meet his expectations” its a very hard situation though because we were so close and I feel so lost without him. I have recently blocked him on everything to try an distance myself from the situation because it is really effecting me and making my anxiety really bad. I guess its time to accept our friendship was built on how he felt about me and move on! 🙁