The holidays are generally hard for me but this year was especially rough. For some reason I started ruminating over a past relationship of more than thirty years ago in which a boyfriend I was deeply in love with unexpectedly ended our relationship of 2 1/2 years. I hadn’t thought about this for at least 20 years so I don’t know why it came up in my thoughts again. It turns out the internet can be a blessing and a curse because I was able to find him online and reached out. He was polite but obviously didn’t want much contact. We are both happily married with kids so it’s not as if I was looking for anything. Maybe I felt that if I could establish new memories, it could help me let go of the old ones. Any advice for going forward would be appreciated!