no they don’t. sometimes happy sometimes sad. sometimes do this, sometimes do that

sometimes me and my cousin laugh about this and go play and say oh god crazy parents

ya so annoying!!! sometimes im not even that messy like just some toys – but more they get mad that I am “absent minded” they always say “oh where is her brain!!!”

Dear Anita,

ya she doesn’t let me help her bc she says i am messy and absent minded. and then i think – ya i am – i dont know why i am

dear Anita,

no – a lot of my friends always watch tv for hours – they sometimes sit on the couch the whole day and watch all the episodes at one time

Dear Anita,

okay I will do this, I have started to – and will continue to. I will also report back on this activity/process.

Lets resume the exercise/I am in fact feeling very in touch with innate CC today.  I was thinking about the exercise, and all of a sudden I look up on the NYC subway this morning and see a friend from high school!!
A girl I spent hours and hours with studying. A girl who was a huge part of high school. Of all.times and people at that second in one of the busiest times and cities in the world
And yes the universe showed me little CC and said yes. Be gentle with yourself little girl. See your young self

You still need to nurture her. The girl from high school the growing girl. Tell the critics to shut up. Tell your inner self you are fine. Your are just fine.

And I just smiled. Normal CC would say hello to her. But I felt calm and centered and I knew there was no need to. I had my sunglasses on, and I was just me, in my own element, unnoticed. I noticed her and listened to the universe. And that’s it.

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to answer your question: well who did do that, knocking on your door and telling you to do this and this and this?

the person who did this is: SCC

• This reply was modified 5 years, 7 months ago by Cali Chica.

Dear Anita,

Yesterday when i got home I only did what I wanted, nothing more.  I didn’t do what I should do.  So what did I do?

I did nothing.  IN reality CC often doesn’t want to do anyting.  But she goes into super gear and turns into SCC.  She then OVER talks, OVER does, and becomes over extended.  The innate CC often wants to do nothing. Its like a car in neutral thats at a wobbly drive, someone says gosh we need to go a little faster, so BAM full throttle! so now she’s speeding 100mph SUPER SPEED. from 0 to 100 literally.  Innate to super.

The innate CC doesn’t want to constantly better herself.  When someone says oh you should do this – she wants to say SHUT UP.

She doesn’t always have to work on self improvement.  She is working hard daily – unseen to others.  She doesn’t have to better herself daily.  She needs to shut up the critics, outer and inner.

She wants to scream SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP. Let me be.  I am fine how I am.

i gave her flower bc it was nice and pretty. a nice flower, pink and big. my mom likes pink flowers

Dear Anita,

Do you truly believe:

I believe this hurt of Betrayal is intense and the anger resulting from his hurt is also intense and will not allow you to love anyone.

Yes I see this. Yes I do.  Yes, the neurons have the protective goopy concrete sheath so I don’t “feel it’ per se at this exact moment.

Please elaborate as to what this means – and how I can slowly undo it even step by step.  I want to love my husband but recently I feel anger and resentment and just nothing.  “love” as in some affection here and there.  but no remorse for my abuse in the past, no true feeling of love