Hey there!

I am glad you posted here because I know exactly how you feel! I am from the same background, and have done many of the same things as you. I am about to turn 22, and I have never felt more weird/confused/vulnerable about life. Like you, I have kind of been on a conveyer belt my entire life. I am graduating undergrad this May and I will be starting graduate school in August. Pretty main stream… I have many talents and abilities, but I sometimes feel like I don’t really know what I want out of life yet! I never used to think about it, I thought just getting my bachelors degree and eventually becoming an OT would make me happy. I wouldn’t say that I am unhappy, but I just feel like I am also on a narrow path. I always thought I knew who I was and what I wanted…but I think what I wanted is what society wants. Ugh. It’s a tough cycle and the more you think about it the more you begin to worry. Unfortunately, this time period has caused me much anxiety and panic, which isn’t fun at all. I just feel like there has to be more to life than what meets the eye but I just can’t put my finger on what it exactly is yet. I don’t think I am crazy either, besides the fact that I can overanalyze things too much sometimes! Luckily, I have some friends who I can connect with on a deeper level, but it’s still hard to relate sometimes. I think the most important thing to remember is that things do happen for a reason…even if you don’t quite understand it yet! 🙂

Hi, there!

I know exactly what you mean. I experience this as well in many aspects of my life and it’s never easy – but you have to remember that nothing is certain in life. We can control it as much as we want too, and do the best that we can for ourselves and others but it’s okay that there is an unknown. If we knew exactly what was going to happen everyday, wouldn’t it get pretty boring?! I struggle with this as well, so you’re not alone! I try and imagine the unknown as driving your car… You continue to keep driving even though you don’t know what is ahead because you know you’re going to be okay and can trust the road ahead of you. Unfortunately people like us tend to overthink which causes unneeded worry. As for your cat, I hope he or she comes back safely. Keep an optimistic mind and know that there is a blessing in everything, even if you don’t see it right away!