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  • January 31, 2014 at 11:47 am #50087
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    I am trying really hard. But thinking of all the lies she told me and how she keeps on doing things that she had promised she won’t ever do takes me down anytime i feel so much overwhelmed. I can not imagine her with other guys specially those douchebags. She is just seeking for attention from those guys these days and it hits me so hard thinking how did she not care how badly i was being hurt. She does things that no guy in a relationship would have tolerated.

    January 31, 2014 at 9:08 am #50081
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    Thank you once again Matt. I will try everything you said.
    I will work upon my fears.
    I have one more question to ask.
    I am holding too many grudges to my past relationship, i have all that inside my heart, i don’t share my feelings with her because when i tried she made fun of them, or she would taunt to to such an extentet that i will feel worse. How do i let this feeling go off my heart ? I feel so heavy and overwhelmed all the time that even thinking about it makes me feel like crying.
    I hope metta meditation helps in this too.
    Thank you again matt you are really helpful.

    January 31, 2014 at 7:57 am #50078
    Prakhar
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    Matt thank you for the reply. I find this place really helpful.
    I have not seen any doctor and i am trying to cope up on my own. Some of the past fears have come true so i am too worried. I only find negativity everywhere. As i read your post i read the line about the clock and thought that this means this fear will also come true. I want to do anything to stop it. I want it to be true that this is just negative thought and it won’t happen. I am looking forward to hear from you again. I had actually deleted 9/10 portion of my post this is just 10% of what i wrote. Thank you

    January 31, 2014 at 3:14 am #50064
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    Thank you Tamanna. I will read this again whenever i will need to.
    I just said a few things to her friend, and now i am feeling that when her friend will tell these things to her she might feel bad about it and harm herself. Even if i would have not said anything to her friend i would have framed situation in my mind of something bad happening.

    January 30, 2014 at 8:52 am #50010
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    Someone reply me please

    January 30, 2014 at 8:51 am #50009
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    Try not to rely on others for your happiness. You are your source of happiness and joy. Don’t give relationships so much importance. You were happy before that right. Start loving yourself do what you like and you will meet someone who will be worth all it.

    January 30, 2014 at 5:34 am #49999
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    Yesterday i saw a tv show that said about the significance of number 3 and now i would be afraid of all bad things happening which i thought of because of 3 replies. My ocd and gcd is this bad i don’t know whom to share this with.

    January 30, 2014 at 5:29 am #49998
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    Thank you so much for writing all that for me. It gets easier when you see people care.
    I once used to fear that she might get close with her ex again and she did. Now i have fear that she will do something really bad i even fear typing it.
    I think that what if many years later i will be sitting somewhere thinking about her. What if she gets in a situation where i could have helped but i will not be with her at that time. I make up the worst situations in my mind. Even if she throws a brick at me i will care for her. I think that something bad happens to her and i will never know or maybe i will spend my whole life thinking of her i am ready to take it if it helps her. I am shiviring while typing all this i have a great ocd and gcd problem and i feel i am a kind of negative energy that will make bad things happen. I feel even posting things here will make bad things happen.

    January 29, 2014 at 9:30 pm #49986
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    Do you think i have made things so bad because of my anxiety and worries ? I am stuck in between. I think if i get back with her i might either stick to grudges then i think of just the good memories. I have never been able to make decisions. I fear making decisions. I keep sitting in between of two things.

    January 29, 2014 at 9:26 pm #49984
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    Thank you Barbara that helped. The thing is i fear that i should not let her go while my other part says it will get better. I just keep sleeping all time to get away from these thoughts. I am relating everything to my past relation, like i am getting what i had done. Is it so ?

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