Hi,
I am responding because I am feeling the same way about the state of the world. It sucks and I really do not know if I will ever feel differently.
What I do know though is that not all people are bad or unconscious. There are a lot of good people in this world and I am always inspired by them.
You said that you do not like going outside of the house. Is there any where else you could go where you would feel happy. I don’t even think you would have to go by yourself. The point is to open yourself to the possibility of encountering goodness. I know this is old fashioned but I like to go to church because I believe I am surrounded by other people who want this world to be a better place but I am not saying this is the only place you could feel this way.
Another place I like is any where near water or fields.
This time of year is so beautiful. Take a drive through a park with your spouse and notice the families and children playing and the bikers biking, the runners running; getting healthy for themselves. Feeling good about yourself begins with you and the love you have for others, even in the most simplest way.
God bless you on your journey