Hello Kelly, facing the loss of any family member is a very hard reality to face and only time will heal. I also have lost precious family that I would do anything to have back. My best advice for you now is to simply “talk” to as many people that share your loss, care about you, or trust. Do not shut down open your heart through conversation and allow the healing process to begin.

Don’t give up I can tell you talking to others will help while you find a good group.