Anita, thank you and I apologize for missing your reply! I had actually missed that, so I appreciate the reminder. 🙂

I will most definitely look into CBT, as that sounds like something that I could benefit from!

For your last suggestion (and I greatly appreciate you putting the mental effort in to discuss this with me, so thank you so much), the most recent job I quit was a customer service job, working from home (thankfully, a lot of jobs are now going virtual, so there are more options than just industrial). You’d think that because it was work-from-home, it’d be easier for me to handle the stress, as I was in a more familiar environment (or at least, I thought that) – but no. The training, while it was 4 weeks, was not nearly sufficient enough to prepare me for the actual job and the multiple programs we had to cycle between to handle a call.

While I did find out that I can handle customers well (I surprised even myself by at least sounding professional and like I knew what I was doing), the stress of waiting for a ridiculously long time for an answer from a team leader when I had no idea what I was doing was too much. I wasn’t able to just sit there and wait. The only enjoyable part of the job was making some decent friends during training, the WAH aspect, and actually being told how much the customers really enjoyed interacting with me.

I realize that it was only my first few days and the job would definitely get easier, and part of me regrets just not even giving myself the chance, but even that amount of stress and frustration was too much… I think I just honestly was most upset about the fact that I just didn’t know how to do the job I’d been training 4 weeks for. Maybe that’s perfectionism or expecting too much of myself? I’m not sure. I just felt like I should have known more, but I didn’t. And it made me feel unintelligent and frustrated, so I left. Still trying to figure out if I regret that or not.

Is that what you were asking for? Hopefully that’s enough information. Again, thank you so much!

TeaK, thank you for the reply!

I do realize that that is a lot of moving for a growing person, especially with moving to numerous schools and making and re-making new friends every time. I’m not exactly sure how it’s affected me, but I know it has. It had to have affected me, right?

After reading your and others’ replies, I am definitely going to be attending therapy. If moving around or having anxiety or anything else has made pursuing my goals that much more of a difficult task, then I believe I need to learn how to cope with it and grow, instead of simply sitting stagnant with self pity and frustration.

Thank you so much! Your reply has given me lots of insight and thinking to do. I hope you and yours are doing well! 🙂