Sorry for late reply. My granfathee just died the other day. So things were a little rough.

Brav3: I think you’re right. But how do I break this negative circle? I was used to being comfortable with single life but I am not now. I was very happy focusing on myself and ect. But it’s a few years ago now. I wish I knew just how to stop it. I’m trying some hypnosis to boost my confidence, and meditation. But other than that I don’t know how to stop thinking I’m unlovable.

Growingthrulife: I meet them all sort of places. Either online or through friends.
Other than that, what’s important to me is to feel good and be happy. To get more confidence is a big goal of mine.

Thanks to both of you for the answers.

Teddy:

Thanks for the answer! I can assure you I’ve thought it through many times. They’re not necessarily jerks those I’ve been dating, but they have just never felt the same way. I have tried asking if they would always be honest with me, and tell me if there was something I did wrong ect. But never had anyone say anything, they said I’m a great person, they just don’t feel the same way – or have changed their mind. One or two have said it’s been because of my weight – I’m not super big, but I’m a bit curvy. But I can’t change that. It’s how I am and I’m already working out and eating healthily so I’m not gonna try change that for someone. I feel fairly confident in my own skin.

Last time it happened I did ask more firmly if there was anything wrong I did, because I wanted to know, but still got the same answer – you’re a great person. You’ll find someone someday.

But it can’t carry on like that can it? If I’m a great person then why do I never find someone ? I’ve never had someone and I deeply wish to get that experience.

I’ll try look for red flags, so far I can’t see any as they all seem like good people but they just tend to suddenly change their mind or not feel the same in general. I don’t really see any red flags in their behaviour as such.. which is why I feel like there must be some sort of bad luck or aura about me that makes me unsuited for being a person people want to be with?

First of, thanks to the two of you for replying to my post, I really appreciate it!

Maureen: I’m not entirely sure I understand what you meant? I’m sorry, if I misunderstand t, English is not my first language. But do you mean I need to come to a self acceptance??

Mark: I’m glad you understand, I appreciate your kind words. I’m gonna try to hang in there, and I hope there’s love for me in the future. It gets hard just having to hang in there, whilst for some people – like many of my friends – finding love just comes easy to them.

I am very glad to know, however, that I’m not alone with this feeling. I also know that my friends and family love me – without doubt – but I just long for that person who love me in a special way. A relationship that goes a little deeper. As many people, I think, at some point in their life long for. And it’s good to know what I sorta need to do about it.

Thanks again! Xx