This is exactly where I am now. I moved countries to be with my boyfriend (I am French, but I was living in Ireland during three years, and he moved to London to get a job), and I never found a good job because I don’t have to relevant qualification yet. I struggle with money, my parents are able to help me sometimes but they also have their own problems and I feel very guilty to be a burden for them, even though they always make me feel good about needing help.
My only income is private tuitions in French, it’s not very interesting and it doesn’t pay much. Also, I have a different income each month as it depends on how many students take classes with me. I usually have enough to pay the rent, pay for transport… and that’s it really. My boyfriend works part-time and is in a similar situation.

What I find helpful, as I get very, very anxious about it, is to make lists of projects, constantly.

Instead of using my anxiety as an excuse to do nothing, I use it when I need a push.

When I feel lazy and worried and tired and completely depressed… I just tell myself that I don’t want that life anymore, and that change won’t come out of the blue. There are positive things out there and I have to get up and get them. I can’t afford to feel sorry for myself too long because I need to actually act and make a change in my life.

This is what gives me the energy to apply for training programmes to have a better qualification, this is what gives me the energy to give more tuitions even though I am also working in a dissertation in literature, this is what gives me strenght to get up and do things instead of “just” worrying about the future.

I use it as a push. I have a lot of hope that somehow, someday, things will be a bit easier on me 🙂