Hi Norma,
It sounds like you feel like you are going through the motions of life for the sake of it, rather than for you. Happiness often comes in activities we do that put us in a state of “flow”. You know – when you get so caught up in what you are doing that you lose track of time. You think 20 mins have gone by, but you check the time and you’ve been having fun for 2 hours.
Do you have any hobbies? Are there any things you do just for you? If you can’t think of things that you are doing right now for yourself, a good tactic is to recall things you used to do as a child. Things like drawing, bike riding, walking/exploring, crafting, baking etc. If you can, perhaps harp back to your childhood and pick an activity from then you that you previously enjoyed. Give it a go again, and see if it still lights you up. Keep trying different activities that give you a bit of spark back.
Cheers 🙂
Anna