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Hi Zoe,
I hate situations like this. You sound like a good, intelligent woman who is probably really good at your job. I don’t understand when power and drama have to be put between the work that you do. Management wants us to do good work, and these types of unnecessary drama prevents us from doing good work.
Maybe this feeling is a sign that you should find another job, but there is definitely a balance in the job search and enjoying your free time. Just imagine having a job where you can actually be happy at the end of the day. When my job situation was in question I got a lot of pleasure out of going on Craigslist at the end of the end of the day and just seeing all the possibilities that are out there, and then perhaps choosing one “great” job, and then thinking about the cover letter the next day, really honing it throughout the morning, applying to one a day. Focus on the hope of a fresh start and all the possibilities that are out there and not the drama as much as possible.
In the meantime, I find the most happiness by pretty much ignoring all drama. Just not responding to dramatic exchanges as much as possible, not inserting ourselves into the drama.
MarkParticipantAlso, I just wanted to add awareness has really helped me get in touch with my spiritual side. I am not that good at meditating, but I find when I am able to string together five or ten breaths where I am continuously listening to sounds I become more clearheaded and balanced. I think balance is important, especially in spiritual progress. You can also learn a lot by reading. “Nothing Special” by Charlotte Joko Beck, “Radical Acceptance” by Tara Branch, and “The Art of Living” by Epictetus are some of the books that have helped me the most.
MarkParticipantHi Bronwyn,
I also don’t like how I look and I am self-conscience around other people. I think we can all sense that times are changing. As someone said in another post I read, people don’t seem to desire face-to-face interaction as much anymore. Everyone is on their smart phones and online, and it is this technology that is being created that is the future many of our children and grandchildren will be raised in. Things we couldn’t even imagine growing up will be their reality. I think we can all do a lot of good if we realize this potential for either a lot more darkness or light online and then do what we can to make the world brighter for the future. I think you will find the more you focus on helping others, and especially the future, the more you will begin to love yourself and life more.
Online is cool because you can totally control the image you project to people, but it can also be sort of fake, too. Lately I have found a lot happiness in working on myself by identifying the things I do that make me happiest, and the people who make me unhappy, and doing more of the former, and being around less of the latter. Every day we can become better, especially if we know the person who we want to become. I only have a vague idea of this person now, but every time we improve we move closer to this person.
June 18, 2017 at 12:58 pm in reply to: I am close to giving up on ever being wanted and loved #153860MarkParticipantHi Sunseeker1,
Maybe instead of focusing on wanting to make new friends (which you can always try to do!) you can instead start focusing on yourself so that you love to be alone. It doesn’t matter if you are fat, or black. You can always love yourself. I like to make a list of things about myself that I want to change or improve, and then to create steps or strategies I can take toward achieving that goal. And then go out and take the first step! Appreciate the ability to be able to get better, to move forward.
Depression is often a sign that you are not letting go of something that you should be moving on from. If it is your ex-boyfriend that is making you depressed and preventing you from moving on, I often like to focus on the things they do that we usually block to make the person into someone better than they actually are, our idealization of them. Focusing on these instead of pining after the things you miss can help you start to move forward. Sometimes moving forward may be gradual, and sometimes it may seem so rapid it is overwhelming. But it is important that we try not to look back at things we cannot change. Instead, as Anita wrote, focus on the things you can control. And I think you may find more positive changes you begin to make in yourself the more the more other people will want to be around you.
Also, I just want to suggest perhaps focusing on other people instead of yourself. I only started to move forward from some issues that were holding me back when I started to trying to help other people. You say you have one girlfriend. What can you to help her? Or is there someone at work you can do a nice thing for? As the Dalai Lama XIV said, “We are visitors on this planet. We are here for one hundred years at the very most. During that period we must try to do something good, something useful, with our lives. If you contribute to other people’s happiness, you will find the true meaning of life.”
MarkParticipantI would say to hang in there, but I’m actually not sure that is good advice. Sometimes that’s all you can do, but a lot of it is creating possibilities for yourself. Keep moving forward!
MarkParticipantHey Steph,
I was reading a book on anxiety called “Dare: The New Way to End Anxiety and Stop Panic Attacks” and the author made a few good suggestions. First, the next time you feel anxiety, to just pause and ask, “So what?” Is the issue this big of a deal for how it is making you feel? Second, use the anxiety to excite you. You are living! Next, instead of running from the anxiety, sort of fall into it, allow yourself to feel it. And then go and do something that you love. If there isn’t something that you love to do, just the search for finding a passion can be a lot of fun. I think the combo of not letting it overwhelm you and then losing yourself helps yourself to move on from what is making you anxious.
It’s good that you can be by yourself. You don’t need a guy to make you happy. A lot of time other people can sort of obscure ourselves from who we really are. Since you have some time on your own, perhaps make a list of things you want to change about yourself and goals that you have, and then choosing one and thinking of a first step you can take to begin moving toward that goal today. The feeling of progress and hope will help with the anxiety.
Also, I find that helping other people helps me when I am feeling low. I can think about the good things that I am doing instead of the things about myself and my life that I wish was different. Even if your life sucks, you can still make other people’s lives better!
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MarkParticipantHi Jessica,
You don’t have to be around anyone that makes you feel bad. I know it seems that your social life is so important now, but a lot of the people who seem so important to you now you probably won’t even think about after you graduate.
One piece of advice that I have to remind myself again is don’t compare yourself to others. I guess comparing yourself could drive you to become better, but it can also make you bitter and insecure. The next time you find yourself comparing yourself, maybe just stop and question if this is really doing any good.
Don’t change because of what others say about you. Decide the person who you want to become and don’t let people who make you feel bad affect your self-progress.
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MarkParticipantHi Aks,
You know that you want both your parents and your boyfriend in your life. Perhaps instead of planning on one big talk or letter to change everything, change could be a gradual process. Think about it from your parents’ perspective: this way of understanding life that they have known ever since they were young is being challenged. What could be the best ways to see from their perspective, and then let them know your’s, and then search for the similarities in the perspectives? Maybe you can begin there. Perhaps both sides could make small changes to produce big change.
Some of it sounds like it is beyond tradition. Some of it seems like personality conflicts. Perhaps it would help to know that your parents and boyfriend don’t have to get along, or even see each other that much, but if they love you they can make you happy by simply not talking or complaining about the other person.
MarkParticipantHi Lily,
Sounds like you are surrounded by negativity… at work, at home. It’s hard being one who was cheated on because you tend to be left with this idealized image of the partner. He left me for her, while you are the one stuck alone thinking about him with her.
Try not to do that. I know he was probably a great guy, but he probably had his issues, too. It helps me to remember those when I am trying to move on from someone. It takes time and conscious effort. Notice when you are thinking about him, realize that it doesn’t help, and then try to think about something else. It doesn’t do much good to think about the person at all when you are trying to move on. Try to find something you love to do instead. Reading, learning something new, and working on something meaningful can also help to take your mind off him for a while.
Meditation can also help because you are training your mind to observe itself. You are staying present and not lost in the thoughts. Continuous stretches of quiet and calm. Listening to sounds instead of the thoughts in your head. Noticing all the colors and details instead instead of thinking about him.
Try to focus on the hope, instead of thinking about the things that are bothering you.
MarkParticipantHi Miracle88,
I don’t know exactly what you are going through, but I have felt the same way as you. I know what it likes to feel hopeless. Even if you are feeling horribly, you can still can still create hope. You are still so young.
When I was going through something similar, reading and learning new things really helped me to get out of my own mind. Duolingo is a great way to strengthen your mind while not thinking about your problems. I was doing it at a bar last night and the combination of the atmosphere, alcohol, and learning really made me feel a whole lot better.
There are also a lot of books that can help. I would recommend “Nothing Special” by Charollote Joko Beck, “Radical Acceptance” by Tara Branch, and “The Art of Living: The Classic Manual on Virtue, Happiness, and Effectiveness” by Epictetus and Sharom Lebell are all books that helped me when I was struggling.
MarkParticipantHi Aks,
I just wanted to suggest the possibility of just letting it all go. Could it ever be possible to get away from your boyfriend, from your family, and live the life you want? What would that life look like? You don’t have to stay stuck.
MarkParticipantHi Elise,
That’s good advice about asking the group what about your performance they don’t like and how you can do better. If they are being mean, I would just quit. I know the position seems important now, but it probably won’t make much a difference on any opportunities in your future.
Something that may help you: I don’t talk to anyone from my high school anymore. I wasted countless hours in high school worrying about what people thought about me. It made me sort of miserable. And now I barely even remember them.
High school is an important time to realize who you are, but you are surrounded by so many other teenagers who are confused about who they are. Some of them are probably very mean and feel better about themselves when other people feel bad. Try to stay away from those people. Being popular or well-liked is overrated. Even more important is that you like yourself.
MarkParticipantHi Adly,
It’s OK to feel this way. It doesn’t mean there is anything wrong with you. You love the way he loves you but you sense there may be someone else out there who you may love more one day.
I know how it feels to not want to be close with anyone. Lately I have been sort of taking a step back and looking at the dating scene with a more detached perspective. I was always the type of guy who wanted to find a girl and have everything with her — passion, friendship, a child. But maybe in this day and age love is getting less like that. Maybe that’s OK. Maybe you can still have an awesome relationship/friendship with your current guy but not lose possibility. A lot of relationship’s passion simply can not stand the test of time. It doesn’t mean there is anything wrong with him or you. And hopefully one day you will find a guy who you know for sure you don’t want anyone else. If you do find him, try to let your boyfriend down gently and give him hope. Breaking up is almost unbelievably depressing, but after the depression is almost a whole new life, a new person strengthened by a broken heart.
MarkParticipantHey Eliana,
Something that has really helped me is imagining the person I am talking to is my best friend. Also, thinking of a favorite person or memory can put me in a better frame of mind when I am down. Perhaps if you try a few strategies like these, they may start to counteract your urge to hurt people, which has its roots in something. All these unwanted emotions we carry has a source that we need to explore and move beyond.
MarkParticipantHey Miracle,
I think the thing to do here is to focus on all the hope you have. You are only 29!
I like to take about fifteen minutes to sort of sit down and make a list of things in my life that I want to happen, including things about myself that I want to change. And then choose one, go back to where you are now, and decide on the first step you can take to achieve one of those goals. Even if you aren’t working and are stuck in other areas of your life, you can still get better, you can still always be moving forward. Create possibilities.
I was just taking a walk about fifteen minutes ago and I found myself replaying one of my least favorite things to think about. And then right in the middle of it, as a whole bunch of emotions started to come over me, I just stopped. And I thought something like, “What good is it doing to think about this right now?” And I felt better.
Hope this helps. Hang in there!
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