I feel I should stress this is the absolute worst that could happen but probably wouldn’t. It’s just always at the back of my mind and causes me anxiety. I’m doing everything in my power to prevent this from becoming reality.

No, my parents are self sufficient and don’t need help. But my decisions do affect others, and one of those is a small child. She’s already being affected by my issues at the present and that is really hurting me. It’s one thing for me to be down but it’s unacceptable(to me) for her to suffer.

I just feel lost and anxious. I’m doing all that I know to do (apply as much as possible, make the most in interviews) but it’s still not clicking. I just want to do the best that I can and make my life the best that I can. I have no one that I can talk to about this in my daily life. No close female friends, no mother, no one. And those I do talk to just do the “you’re awesome, don’t let it get you down.” I just need someone to really bounce ideas off of. I feel if I was “awesome” I wouldn’t be where I am. I’m very frustrated, anxious, and alone.

Hi, Peter, thanks for responding. I think if I understand you right you’re saying to relax and stay calm and things will happen as they need to happen. I just need to be patient and wait?

I feel worthless and useless being let go from the job.  I feel like there’s nothing out there for me. I feel like there’s nothing I am talented at doing.

I talked with a trusted advisor who helped me realize that I am the problem. My ego was too big and I don’t bring what I thought I did to the table. Now the question is, can I accept that? I don’t want to, but that seems like the lesson the Universe keeps trying to teach me that I just refuse to learn. I don’t want to be worthless or useless but that is exactly what I am. Maybe once I learn this things will turn around. It’s hard to wrap my head around but that’s why life keeps tossing this back to me.  This is my life lesson.

My duties have expanded, but they also include what I was originally hired to do. I’m doing the work of 4 positions right now.

Updated to add: I feel like I’m being set up to fail because the duties I’m performing are in an area completely unrelated to what I was hired for and I don’t have much experience in what I’m doing. Also adding that I’m in my early 40’s but my town is small and there just isn’t the opportunity here that there is in other places. I’m established here so moving isn’t an option and commuting would not be cost or time effective.