Thank you guys! Im just getting really lazy and I guess my confidence isnt as high as it was. Im tired of school too. I was considering a move to chemistry but I didnt do it.. so I dont know. I just had a chemical engineering job that I didnt like. I guess Im just going to do the research here in the lab and see where that takes me. I dont know why I dont want to work in that environmental lab though… ideally it would be a good place to work at but i just dont know why I refuse to work there. I guess because my professor told me it would be a lot of repetitive testing and it would get boring. And I kind of agree with her. Actually I do agree with her. Before having a job was just that, having a job. I was happy to have one, and I didnt mind what I did. As soon as I started to dislike my engineering jobs is when I started to have this notion of you have to like what you do… Im just being negative about everything. My plan is to graduate, take the summer off and see what happens from there. I just dont like having this anxious pain in my chest of not knowing what to do. Or else this wouldnt be such a big deal! Thank you guys though!

I can do anything if I put my mind to it… I know I can. The repetitive tasks were related to the water analysis lab job that I was offered. I dunno why but I still dont want to take the job, even though its about chemistry, which I claim I like. The major thing is I feel like Ive lost my sense of identity… like in middle school it was all about orchestra and playing the cello, and in high school it was all about being dedicated to school and getting into a good college and also 3 yrs of chem. I didnt choose orchestra because I wanted to keep me playing as a hobby. I switched to math my junior year and said I wanted to be a math teacher. That didnt work out. When I came back to engineering I decided I would do environmental and nothing else. After my internship, I really doubted myself since it was water treatment and I didnt really like it, even though it involved chemicals. In the job you were either a ‘sales engineer’ who sold chemicals or a technician who fixed the equipment and did routine water tests and boring inspections. The internships Ive had exposed me to real engineering stuff though. And I kind of chose engineering because most of my friends were also doing it and I liked math and it seemed like a stable career that paid well. I realize now that money isnt everything. I have started my senior year now in civil and environmental engineering and the only reason Im continuing is because I will do research and that is something that I have always wanted to do. After that who knows…

Thank you for responding!

Actually the girlfriend thing doesnt bother me, I was dating this girl prior to obtaining the job and we just stopped talking because we wanted different things. Also my relationships have been quite short haha, the longest being about 5 months. Something always happens. I havent had many since school has been a priority and I was stuck on a girl for quite some time. Also I consider myself good looking, I just have been focusing on school since HS . Anyways! hahaha.

I tend to look at the positive side of things too! Im fortunate and grateful to have a job, that is one of the reasons I chose Engineering; there is a lot of jobs out there. My dream has always been to travel to different places so I still hope to do that!

Your work ethic is admirable. My coworker now is kind of in the same boat. Im glad you are moving forward!

The thing with me is Ive gone through different stages in my life. Middle school I was really into orchestra and got lazy in HS. In HS i was really into school cuz I didnt want my parents to pay for college. And then I kind of chose engineering because all my friends were going into it, I liked math, and I felt like it would provide a good salary. And my dad’s side of the family has 2 eng graduates. He always spoke highly of them. I also wanted to be someone important and be proud of my job. Now I just want to be proud of my job.

I still have a few weeks to think. I dont want to throw away all my hard work. Im the type of guy that likes to use things and keeps things until they cant be used anymore and thats why I was hesitant to change majors a year ago. If i was going to do it (change to chem), it should have been last year haha. This job totally messed with my brain though… I was on track and happy and now Im a mess. I will try to keep calm tho and be healthy, cuz there is only one life, so I gotta live it! Thanks!