I think about how she is a good friend. Like we could stay friends but I still love her. Maybe I just want to explore with someone else? I think I would be sad if I cut it off since we spent so much time together @anita

Thank you. I was starting to really put it behind me but then I started talking to my friend about this topic because he had a similar situation. I always feel like I’m attracted to my current partner but then when I don’t feel like that I think of the ex. And it’s all the time. It’s weird but I haven’t spent any time with my ex, even when we were dating. I think I don’t feel like that relationship was fulfilled. Like I feel like my current relationship interjected ( and though I’m happy about that) I I feel, at times, that the relationship with the eex never went to the next level. Always hoping for what could have been.

Thank you everybody. I will try to cut her off, even though it sucks. I already just thought us to be friends but my recent encounter made me get some of my old feelings back. It’ll be tough but life isnt supposed to be easy is it? haha. Thank you and after some thought I will see what the best thing to do is.

I also dont think I should keep my hopes up. I wanted to forget her by having a similar experience I had with her but because I like my current gf and I respect her too much to do that, I did not do that. I will try to enjoy things with my current gf! Thank you everybody 🙂

Hi Jasmine,

So the traveling went great! I went to Japan for a month and Brazil for a month and a half.

Japan was beyond awesome. I met so many people there, band friends and friends that I would consider having as life long friends. It went by too fast… I want to go there as soon as possible. Japan was also the place (and this might be TMI) where I first got intimate with the opposite sex. On my 3rd to last to day and 2nd to last day I got lucky with a girl each night. One girl is going to visit me on mmy birthday here, so thats exciting.

Brazil was nice too. But not as cool as Japan. Poverty surrounds Brazil and its hostile environment made it a bit discomforting. I was situated in a dangerous part if town, which made me uneasy. My cell was almost pickpocketed and hit and I witnessed a female get drop kicked. Other than that, great atmosphere, beach, soccer, and the ladies, all things I love. This was in Rio.

I went to visit my friend who happens to be girl 2 and half weeks later. It was a disaster. I used to have feelings for her but saw her now as a sister. And as a “brother” I did not enjoy her making out with other guys. It made me so uncomfortable and I told her that. She continued and did other things to piss me off. At the end she kicked me out of the house and I flew back to the US the next day. We told each other off and that was the end of that friendship. But what is important about this is that beacause of these events, my anxiety and doubts returned. Her making me uncomfortable put me in an anxious state.

Now Im back to reality. And confused once again. I dont know if I should get a lab job, contact this environmental firm, or apply to jobs in REno cuz im sick of Vegas. Im a mess once again, and it seems the trip was only satisfactory for a little while. I blame my ex-friend but now idk what too do. Bills are stacking up and i need a job but I also want to move. Im thinking to get a job, save up and move later… the question is what job?? i know this seems childish but any advice is appreaciated. Thank u and have a great day!

Thank you for the quote Jasmine. I will keep it in mind when making my decision! 🙂

Im just getting a little frustrated thats all. I got to be more direct as well. Like the last girl I dated, I didnt really put much thought into her and things were great. But thats why I didnt care when we stopped talking. But when I really like a girl, thats when I become super nice for some reason and joke around a lot and am not as direct because im afraid I’ll do something that might scare her away. My confidence was super high when I talked to the sorority girl. But after I talked to the sorority girl, I had my problem with my major during the summer my confidence went down, When i started to talk to the last girl, my confidence rose but I wasnt as flirty as i usually am. I felt like in kindergarden trying to talk to a girl haha. Thanks for the comment!