Hey Tai

It was weird reading your post because it was like I was talking to myself. I had the same problem that I felt that people would not except me if I was not constantly entertaining them with jokes or stories or mannerisms and this also drove me into a severe depression. You have to be careful though when you say it will all go away after high school because these thoughts become a habit and habits are extremely hard to stop. But you can make them stop if you have a strong will. What helped me get over my incessant worry about what other people thought about me was realizing I have control over what I think. At times it does not seem so but it is true that the control is there. I do not know how spiritual you are but want helped me was believing that my mind and my body are not truly me. They are tools that I use to experience the world we live in. Who I truly am goes much more beyond a mind and a body because who I am is someone filled with love and compassion for others. If you realize this, you realize that your mind is a tool to express your love for others and it is totally controlled by you. Hopefully this will stop your bad thoughts

God Bless
Adam