Hi friends! All my life I have been adiccted to difrent things I don,t blame myself for it becuse I know It was becuse of the love I never get from my parents. Annyway 3 years ago I was wake upp by a random lady werry fast. I saw things difrently and get a lot of deep understanding like if u belive in your self everything is possible and I was leting go of everything and I have never fealt so free. Later when I was sitting on a traion hom I was closing my eyes and start to se red collors spinning and a intense energy rushing tro me it was extasy fealing. after a while a open my eyes and start to freak out like some one give my drogs ore something. I start to be paranoid and thought people was talking about me that im was crazy and had a bad trip ore some thing. Seens this day I was complitly difrent I dident know if I was dreaming ore sleeping completly stuckt in mind. Today I know it was my ego coming back and make me a victim. I isolate myself and start to practice yoga and meditation and stoping masturbating and all my adicctions. Today im have high anxiety and fealing energy from the base of the spine going up to my eyes and betwene my eyes. on my right side the energy is more stuckt in solar plexus and and ints feals like a sicknes in stomath like I whant to puke it upp but it get so intense so get scared. My right side of face and body feal so tight and im walking around like totoly disconected from the world. The thing who scare me most is the energy vibrating on right side of my head start really intese in my palate and and presure behind the eye. I feal totoly unbalanced left and right. Thank for healping